Well my positive upswing seems to be lasting, which is a great thing, I typically tend to be negative. Since the news of keeping my home was delivered to me I have tried very hard to stay positive and love life more. For me this means trying my hardest not to stress and treating people, including myself, better. Staying healthy and being stronger both physically and emotionally has become more important to me. My husband and I are really working together and treating each other well, I am enjoying the time I have to speak with new and old friends and I am feeling OK again about living in this town that I am not all that keen on.
I have also received a job interview with the school district here in Kingman. I will update as to how that turns out. I don't want to get too excited until it is over and I have an answer as to if, where and when I will be employed there.
I find myself missing family still and friends far away. This is when I try to focus hard on this new found positivity in my life. It easy for me to become immersed in depression; for reasons or for none at all. I am focusing on my spirituality and will be performing a house blessing for my newly saved home to dispell any prior negativity that was found here and lingered. Keeping it uncluttered and clean helps me as well to stay less stressed and irritatable.
I am thankful for my husband and his ability to be so stable. I am thankful for new friends that I have made here that I can talk to and relate to. These things have been helpful in maintaining a positive mind set.

I am feeling like I grew up way too fast lately.

I feel like yesterday I was a rebellious teenager walking the halls of my high school. I am actually a late twenty-something with a home and a husband that uprooted myself to move a few thousand miles from the comfort of familiarity. We have been married for very close to four years and living here for almost the same.
My dearest oldest friends are having babies and my new and dear friends here are also having babies and adding to their families. It is so wild to me the idea of growing up.
I thought it was mind blowing when we were all moving away and making our own decisions to branch out to other cities and states. Then there was proposals and marriages and I thought, "this is huge." Now my best friend has had her first child; a beautiful baby girl, Elyse. All I think now is, "when did we grow up?"
I am feeling emotional and sentimental missing family and friends; it comes with the territory of moving to another time zone. I can't believe I couldn't be there for the pregnancy and to share this with her, but I plan on making up for it with spoiling her from afar.
My nephews are growing faster than weeds and it is also very hard for me to think of how much I have missed with them. I went from helping care for Anthony on a daily basis to - BOOM - he is five and starting kindergarten next year. I am very fortunate that I am able to see him at least twice a year though when he stays in summer and when my brother and his soon to be wife and the whole crew of kiddos makes their yearly trip out here to visit by car. I have the biggest time loss with my nephews Brycen and Gavin that I have gone the most time without seeing. Last time we were able to come for a visit I cried when I saw their picture on the wall. I went from seeing them almost everyday to every other year at best. They are older and therefore much busier with activities and life and are harder to track down and chat with. When Jeff and I started dating Brycen was just a toddler and Gavin - not on this planet yet. Some days it just hits me more than others. Now I have two more nephews to add to the family with Kaleb and Karter. I am finding myself missing them as well and look forward to seeing them on their visits here.
I am still not the most content in Kingman, but We have a home and friends here now and we also have jobs. Mine may not be the best job or the one I set out for, but it is a job working with children again. I hope to one day move somewhere different again, but for now I have some of my family close by and a place to call home that I love. I am fortunate enough to have my parents and two Aunts and Uncle close by including all of the family visitors that are here throughout the year. While we can't afford to travel right now and are finally getting things in order with our home, it is nice to have family close.
For now we are trying to prepare for the summer months when I am again without a paycheck and we must make it through almost three months. Oh the lives of the low-middle class. :) At least I have some kind of job. That is truly something to be thankful for!